bad mama

Thursday, February 25, 2010

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Today we did NOT have a snow day. It began to snow a little too late but it still made travel treacherous. I fish tailed my way to work. About half way through I started to think how I would never put Zoey in the car on a day like this... then it dawned on me that I had! Minutes later my car went careening (okay, I was going 15 mph but still) towards the underside of a bridge where those big concrete pillars are. Luckily the car, me and my belly all went unscathed but as I continued to fishtail every time I pulled away from a stop sign or red light I was bawling uncontrollably. What a bad mama I was to be driving my stupid little car to work in such bad weather with a not even fully developed babykins in my uterus. I should have just left 40 minutes earlier with Nick. I was sobbing when I got to work, totally puffy, red clown face. Just the beginning of the guilt-ridden feelings of parenthood... *sigh*

BCC FINALLY closed early and I made it back safe but I'm not going out again until Monday, at the earliest. The Honda was a beast when it was just me in a snowstorm but now it's us.

us and a snurricane or snonado. both terms which annoy me. sensationalized weather terminology, just something more to piss off an english major. how about blizzard? or snow storm? something accurate. karli said it best when she said (paraphrased) "am i going to be flooded with snow or sucked up in a snowy tunnel of wind?" exactly. i get the Baltimore/DC Metro area proclaiming "SNOWMAGEDDON" or whatever. That was cute and those poor suckers never get 4 feet of snow! But we're upstate New Yorkers. We can handle lots of snow. Unless we're pregnant and in a honda civic on clinton street... then our hormones kick in and we cry like babies.

Finally, to commemorate this crazy snow storm, the emotions that i'm feeling and what others around me are going through I made a groovy mocktail. I even put it in a margarita glass and am using a small little straw. it's delicious and beats a mug of hot chocolate today...

2 comments:

betsy said...

Hi Sweetheart..aww you poor thing..your a tough cookie for going out in the elements like that. It must have been very scary- but you made it! If you need a delivery of any kind over the next few days you give me a ring ok?! xoxo

Kami said...

Oh Kate. I hear ya. G was born in December, for god sakes. I had to put her in the car in slushie, crappy weather to bring her home from the HOSPITAL! And it was a horrible feeling. I distinctly remember the first big snow storm I drove in with my precious baby in the back. I cried and possibly hyperventilated too.
Rest assured, this guilt...it's not going anywhere. It only gets worse. I'm sorry. But you know what? We do the best we can and our kids survive (and thrive) and that's all anyone (even ourselves) can ask. I love you! I love Zoey!